On the latest episode of I Am Cait, Caitlyn Jenner opened up about the insecurities she faces as a woman as she went on a girls' road trip to San Francisco.
The reality star, 65, confessed she was worried about her deep voice and was considering surgery to make it higher.
She also told her girlfriends - a group of trans women - that she wasn't ready to get into a bathing suit in front of them.
'The pool's too damn cold right now,' she told Jenny Boylan, a writer and co-chair of GLAAD. 'It will happen at some point but I’m in no rush.'
She added: 'This process of coming out doesn't happen overnight. There are so many hurdles to overcome.'
Referring to wearing a bathing suit, she said: 'That’s where I've got to get and that's going to take time.
'I just don't know if I'm ready to expose myself like that. Maybe down the line I'll feel more comfortable but right now I can't see myself doing that.'
Caitlyn confessed her worries about her voice to personal assistant Ronda, hair stylist Courtney and stepdaughter Kim Kardashian.
She said: 'One thing that's always a challenge for everybody is your voice. That can out shoot any time. You look great, you look fabulous, then you open up your voice and everybody goes "oh my god."'
Speaking to Kim and pal Malika Haqq, she revealed how she has tried to secretly order room service in a feminine voice over the years.
She explained: 'What I want to do is just slip into society. One thing I need to work on is that voice.'
'Try out some voices that are a little lighter,' Kim encouraged, suggesting Caitlyn practice ordering breakfast in a different voice.
But the Keeping Up With The Kardashians star descended into fits of giggles when Caitlyn opened her mouth and sounded exactly the same.
'You sound no different,' she said.
'There are things that you can do to change that. Surgery,' Caitlyn told Kim and Malika.
But a horrified Kim told her: 'What if they made a mistake and you came out with no voice?'
The subject of Caitlyn's voice also came up during her first girls night in with all trans women, and the other ladies offered advice on how they had coped with their transitions.
But the group became concerned over Caitlyn's privileged background and conservative views, leading to doubts about her suitability as a spokesperson.
As the women headed to San Francisco on a tour bus, to visit the Human Rights Campaign, Caitlyn told the group she didn’t think it was a good idea for people to become too dependent on financial help.
Afterwards Jenny Boylan told the camera: 'Living in the bubble is an impediment to understanding other people.
'If Cait's going to be a spokesperson for our community, this is something she’s going to have to understand.'
While Ronda and her daughters seemed keen to set Caitlyn up with Candis Cayne, the reality TV star was more interested in practicing her golf swing as a woman.
'The big question now is does it make a difference swinging a golf club with boobs? Will I still be free enough to be able to swing the club?' she asked.
'I think in the putting department it's going to be good because you'll be able to latch onto those little babies under your arm and get a good putting stroke, so I'm optimistic about the future.'
Speaking about her trip with other trans women, she said: 'Being with all these girls who are so accepting of who I am is probably the most freeing thing I’ve ever done in my life. Just to be out there makes me really look forward to the future.'
She also noted: 'The other good thing is we get guys to carry our bags for us.'
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